I’m back! (I think)

It’s been quite a while since my last post. I got distracted with tumblr and then just went off the internet altogether. But, here I am again, about to try to catch you up with what’s been happening!

I moved houses last month after housesitting at a farm for a friend. It was gorgeous there, though looking after a family’s worth of chickens by myself for a week… lets just say I’m not overly fond of eggs at the moment…

I also hate rams…

I’ve also decided to create stories from a few vivid dreams that I had a few weeks ago, in accordance to the ‘scribing’ that Loki had me doing in the dream I had last year. 

On a more serious note, I’ve been learning to recognise and manage my anxieties better. To make it easier to keep up with, I’ve dedicated any exercise I do to Odin, while I’m dedicating training my mental discipline to Sutekh. It’s made it a lot easier so far to get out of bed, since I’m not doing it just for me anymore.

Anyways, I’m hoping to keep you all up to date more often! 🙂

I want to do something I love that helps people.

And right now, that is being a witch for hire. It’s a bit cheesy maybe but some people just don’t have the space, time or desire to learn enough to do spells and stuff for themselves, so I might as well do it for them.

For the next two weeks (until Nov 25), my services will be limited, but free (unless that gets abused). So if you want a spell done or a charm or whatever, just contact me via my about page and I’ll see what I can do for you 🙂

I will not do:

  • Love spells
  • Death curses

(List is subject to change at any time)

Butting in…

OK, here’s what’s happening.

I’ve almost got this Kemetic thing down (and by that I mean I’m treading water rather than drowning now). Everything seems fine. And now Odin has shown up and demanded I pay him some attention. So now I’m finally using all the little things I bought for no (then)-apparent reason, like the raven earrings I bought and the valknut necklace I bought cause it looked cool (didn’t know what it was at the time). And I realize that He’s always been there, in the shadows, waiting for me to notice Him. Even when I was trying to focus on Kemeticism, I could never resist buying anything that had something to do with Him or Norse paganism in general.

And since I’ve let Odin, apparently Loki thinks He can butt in as well. I had a pretty vivid dream that, broken down, I’m pretty sure means He wants me to a) Feed him, and b) Write for him.

What is it with gods wanting me to write!? Seriously! That isn’t even your domain!!! Is it? I’ve never heard of it being Your domain… If anything that’s Odins domain. WTF Loki?!

A bit of a catch-up

Wow, I haven’t been here for ages. So here’s a breakdown of what’s been happening.

I’m doing work experience for extra benefit money (yay) at a place called Road Materials.

We supply things like hi-vis gear, wet-weather gear, hard hats, socks, some really random stuff… So I hope this will help get me a job, though I don’t think they’ll hire me at the end. As much as I like working there, and I’m pretty good at it, they don’t really need me. Until I get a job though, it’s a pretty good way to pass the time and my anxiety plays up less. Most of the time.

I started the Kemetic Orthodoxy (KO) beginner course to see what KO entailed properly. I’m not really big on organised religion, so I’m not sure where it will take me, but let’s see.

I’m about to buy the Wild Unknown tarot deck. It is gorgeous and I will need a lot of practice with it (read: I’m doing free readings).

I’ve been getting the urge to write many different stories, and have lots of characters creating themselves in my head without my permission. Also, I have the urge to read tarot for everyone but myself. I wondered about this briefly and had Djehuty flash through my mind (cackling a little). Thinking to myself “but what if that’s just everyone talking about Him getting to my head?” Then Ptah flashed through, so now I’m somewhat confused. And curious. He’s a creator so I guess writing makes some sense, but tarot? I guess we’ll see.

Had a discussion about monolatry with Josh, which I shall talk about later; it deserves its’ own post.

I guess that’s about it for now, that I can remember. And now that that’s done, I can post again ^__^

A freaky dream and tarot readings!

I haven’t posted in ages but there hasn’t really been a lot to post.

A few nights ago I had a dream where my two flatmates were with me and their 9/10 month old in a buggy on a beach (For ease I shall call the husband Bear and the wife Minx and the baby Cutie). The beach wasn’t very wide and had a tall retaining wall. The two were talking when Bear very quickly ‘teleported’ out to the horizon and back and resumed the conversation. The waves suddenly got bigger and bigger and closer. I told Minx to get up off the beach, to take Cutie fast. She wasn’t listening to me though, just talking with Bear. Then it was too late and as she was about to turn to go, a massive wave washed over us, up to our shoulders, pushing us up against the retaining wall. It subsided fairly quickly and Minx got Cutie out of the buggy and he was fine, not even crying, just spluttering a little. Then there was another wave, and another and they didn’t go away and it pushed me into Bear, who knocked his head against the wall, getting a small cut on his cheekbone. At which point I woke up.

I am a wee bit freaked out by this dream and if anyone can interpret it, I would be grateful.

Also I have started doing free readings on tumblr to practice! I got my first two today, which was a bit exciting, I don’t usually get asks from strangers, it’s kind of a nice feeling 🙂 If you’re on tumblr com help me out! Just flick me an ask with Private/Don’t care and Question/General and a spread you would like (optional) and I will answer it between 7pm and 9pm (NZ time) the day it was received! Or if you aren’t on tumblr and want to help me out anyways, send me an email here:

And I will get back to you as soon as possible!

Do you think I should make a special page for a tarot readings contact form?

I’m not mad I swear…

Well, not much anyway. I was warned. I tried not to get mad. It mostly worked. I’m more exasperated than mad, really. Let me go back a bit here. I enjoyed Rick Riordans Percy Jackson series. It’s good entertainment if you’re after something light-hearted, but still interesting. So I thought that his Kane Chronicles would be similar. It’s set in the same universe. It’s good entertainment. But things about it bug me. I don’t mind the use of the gods Greek names. It makes sense; they are the names that they are well-known for. And yes, I’m sure liberties were taken with their personalities. It’s fiction, after all. The bit that bugs me, is the way he portrays Set. As far as I know (and I’m no expert so there are probably a gajillion inconsistencies) most of the gods are portrayed fairly accurately in their roles in Egyptian mythology, and there are many descriptions of each god. Except Set. He is portrayed only one way. Evil. I tried not to get mad. “It’s a generalisation, it’s for the purposes of the story-telling” right?  “Rick will show Set to have a more in-depth personality once the plot moves on from him as the bad guy”. Nope. Even after a whole book of Him not being the bad guy, the glossary of gods at the end has only three words describing Set: “God of evil”. NO. That is a ridiculous description. I might have accepted god of chaos (though that isn’t entirely true, His chaos is necessary). In fact, I would have accepted almost anything but ‘evil’. I’m just so frustrated with Riordan, he mustn’t have looked at how modern Kemetics viewed the gods (or if he did, it was a very select group) and he didn’t research earlier than when the Osiris cult demonized Set because he killed Osiris. Yeah, okay, not a good deed, but not an evil one either. If I remember rightly (and I may not be here, especially because I don’t even remember where I read this) it was necessary for Osiris to die, because he was the only one strong enough to rule the Duat. Or something like that. (I’m now pissed that I can’t remember)

But yeah. Long story short, I’m slightly mad at a piece of fiction for misrepresenting the god I work with most right now. So… Yeah. Rant over I guess.

Diving deeper

I have noticed over time that I have been slowly developing my path, deepening it (shock! horror!). I think a lot about Ma’at these days, and chaos, and how sometimes we think one is the other and how confusing life is. Like how something seems to be chaotic and awful and shitty, but really, in hindsight, it was what had to happen to pave the way for other things, and, in that sense, it was actually of Ma’at. I know I’m only a (very) baby Kemetic, and I doubt I will ever be orthodox, but I think I made the right choice here, choosing to focus on Sutekh (and by extension Kemeticism) rather than try to juggle two completely different pantheons. I’m not saying I will never work with any other god or pantheon, just not until I feel I have become… stable.

On another note, I really wish I could help people. I wish I had the experience to help people. Like if they had questions that I could answer about all sorts of things; Kemeticism, paganism in general, travelling, life. I want to help, but I either know that I don;t have the knowledge, or I’m not comfortable because I’m not sure. And if I offer help over the interwebs, like just being an ear to vent at, I feel like a creepy stalker person. I just hope that one day, I will be able to help people, like others have helped me.

I want to help, but I don't know how :(

I want to help, but I don’t know how 😦